Thursday, April 2, 2009

Appreciate what you may not have it forever

There are many mornings that I wake up, grumpy and irritable because of being up all night with Budderoo and/or having to wake up early 'cause HoneyPie has to use the bathrom. I admit, that when I am tired, I am miserable...and lately that has been quite a lot. DH tries to find out what is bothering me, I knock it off to being tired...the little things tick me off, making me more grumpy...the kids irritate me a lot when I am sleepy - and they are only being kids.

My loved ones are more valuable and precious to me than anyone else on the face of this earth. I should look at them and remember what it is I love about them – AND not take them for granted. But I admit, sometimes I do.

On Tuesday night, DH had a health scare that brought him to the E.R. which has really made me stop and look at the little things. He is doing OK but has been referred to some specialists...I keep thinking what if he hadn't been as in-tune with his body and known that something wasn't right? Would he have woken up the next morning? What if the treatment at the hospital hadn't worked? How could I face the world without the only man I have ever loved, my partner, my best friend? How could I be a good parent to our children on my own? Just thinking of it brings me to tears.


I have realized that I need to appreciate and give thanks for everything I have. And rather than let the silly things get me down, I need to focus on the positives in my life...and there are many. I will appreciate and take care of the wonder things I have, while I still have them - Because you never know...What if "Tomorrow Never Comes"?

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch him sleeping
He's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would he ever doubt the way I feel
About him in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will he know how much I loved him
Did I try in every way to show him every day
That he's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And he must face the world without me
Is the love I gave him in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much he means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where theres no second chance to tell him how I feel

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

Garth Brooks, If Tomorrow Never Comes, revised =)

T, if a day goes by without me telling you I love you, please know just how much I do. There are so many things I love about you. The sound of your voice, the warmth of your touch, so many little things that make me love you so much. The way you support me, and help with my emotions, the way that you care and show such devotion. The way that your kiss, fills me with desire, and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire. The way your eyes shine when you look at me, lost with you forever is were I want to be. The way that I feel when you're by my side, a sense of completion and overflowing pride. The dreams that I dream, that all involve you, the possibilities I see and the things we can do. How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart, how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part. I could go on for days, telling of what I feel, but all you really must know is my love for you is real.
You have always been my biggest fan...and I will forever be yours.



  1. Wonderful post Hollie, love the pic from 99 of you two. It's amazing how the things we think are huge (like taking out the trash or doing laundry) in our lives are just small specs of dust when we think of our whole picture. Always saying I love yous to each other no matter how angry we are is so crucial you never know what could happen. While these things are horrible to experience in life they call attention to the things that really matter... each other.

  2. Hollie, that was so beautiful. It brought me to tears. I hope Tim is doing and feeling better.

  3. Awww, you two are so cute!
    I'm so glad Tim is fine :)